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[axeslade]

The things I've been trying not to think about for months (years?) now slipped in last night, when I was hovering between sleep and awake. I guess that makes sense, considering what they are, that they'd surface in the (stealing a term from Sandman) 'soft places'. And given that I wasn't quite awake, I couldn't do what I wanted to and run from them. So I had to let them run their course. And they did, and I when I fully woke up, I was feeling almost okay.

I don't know if that's progress or just luck.

*sigh*