A world I thought I knew
Aug. 16th, 2008 07:02 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
axesladeI'm having a bit of a rough time.
I know it's because things are changing. Things I wish didn't have to. And the things I wish would change won't. And I'm not measuring up to my idea of myself, because at the moment it's impossible. And I feel like I'm failing even though I know I'm not, I'm just in new territory. And my heart hurts every day, and it's not a bad thing, but it still hurts.
I'm writing, which helps. But it's a fluffy romance, which doesn't.
I want to cry all the time.
I'm going to blame it on the fact my cycle is all fucked up this month. I swear I felt the PMS leg cramp today, which will mean twice in one month.
I need a hug.
I know it's because things are changing. Things I wish didn't have to. And the things I wish would change won't. And I'm not measuring up to my idea of myself, because at the moment it's impossible. And I feel like I'm failing even though I know I'm not, I'm just in new territory. And my heart hurts every day, and it's not a bad thing, but it still hurts.
I'm writing, which helps. But it's a fluffy romance, which doesn't.
I want to cry all the time.
I'm going to blame it on the fact my cycle is all fucked up this month. I swear I felt the PMS leg cramp today, which will mean twice in one month.
I need a hug.
