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[axeslade]

*sigh*So, about an hour, two hours ago mom and I got into a huge fight. About lots of stuff, some of it I agree with her, some of it was total bull. Like the fact that she isn't buying me any more clothes OR books because I wouldn't try on a dress. Because I don't wear dresses anymore.

*sigh*

So now I'm going to really work on scholarship stuff, because I have to get out of this fucking place.

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[safilix-shark.livejournal.com]

But dresses are ftw!

I only wear dresses!

[axeslade.livejournal.com]

They make me really uncomfortable. I think the big reason is my breasts. I want them removed so badly, and dresses make it more obvious that I have them.

[(Anonymous)]

But boobs are ftw too ;-;

[axeslade.livejournal.com]

Meh. I've just really started hating mine. They don't make me feel sexy, they just feel like...

The best way I've been able to describe it to people who think I'm weird is: manboobs.

Seriously. Just nasty excess fat.

On other women, boobs are just fine (more than fine, heh), but on me...as soon as I have the money, they're gone.

[safilix-shark.livejournal.com]

I wonder why that is? The hating part, I mean. I can't imagine not having mine. It would feel weird. D:

[axeslade.livejournal.com]

*shrug*all I know is, last year when I got out of the shower I glanced in the mirror and went *gag*

Since then I have to pull on my shirt over my towel, I can't stand looking at them.

Last year I actually wore a sweatshirt in April because I couldn't stand being in the t-shirt I was wearing under it because of them. I've tried wearing bras, but they make it worse.

*shrug*

Oh, and on the topic of my original post, heh. Mom also THREW OUT MY SHOES. And I have to walk up to get the mail later. Meaning I'll have to take my dad's insanely-too-big for-me-boots.

[safilix-shark.livejournal.com]

Threw them out? Any reason other than craziness?

[axeslade.livejournal.com]

They were old, true, but I didn't know where the new pair she'd bought me was. So it was mostly craziness.

[spacequeen.livejournal.com]

Awww! *pets* When I was 17, my stepmother threw a hissy fit, forced me to put on a dress, use a curling iron on my hair, put on make-up, and actually did a kind of 'photoshoot' of me. She wanted some pictures of what a 'normal teenaged girl' looks like.

I personally preferred to dress like Janis Joplin. Stepmother was ashamed. *rolls eyes*

She also stopped buying me clothes around 16, but it was because um....she hated me. ;)

[axeslade.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't mind no more clothes. It's the no more books that bothers me. You know I can't live without literary stimulation. She says it's a respect issue. If she respected me, she wouldn't be trying to make me wear something that makes me feel so exposed.

[spacequeen.livejournal.com]

Damn, that is rough. Most parents want to give books to their parents, not take them away. :/

[spacequeen.livejournal.com]

*children

[axeslade.livejournal.com]

Well, she's not taking what I already have, thank god, and I will admit there's a lot I have that I haven't read yet. But I take that to mean she won't pay off the library fines. Which means I won't get to read the new Twilight book unless the school gets it, and I won't get to read the new Karen Marie Moning books, or or...*sigh*yeah.

[spacequeen.livejournal.com]

*Hugs*