I've been waiting far too long

[axeslade]

I'm so tired of feeling like this.

It's only been...closing in on three weeks, I think. But I've never been like this before, and I want OUT! I swear, inside something keeps screaming, it's hurting. I'm begining to identify with my dad more and more. He's bipolar, and recently when he didn't get a job he interviewed for he was blue for days, and this is so much deeper than that. I'm used to crying for no reason, like when Mum and I argued today because I hate the damn math program and she doesn't understand it doesn't work for me, but I'm not used to crying for twenty minutes over something as stupid as that (didn't help that my cd player was being a bitch) but...I want out. Before you guys start freaking, I am NOT suicidal, god no. I just want the demons to get back into the shadows for a little bit so I can focus on school and all the things I need to focus on. I need to deal with them, no doubt, but NOT NOW!




All right. So after fight with mum I watched 50 first dates, god I love that movie. and then there's this, stolen from bitexmarks

If you had me alone... locked up in your room and I had to do whatever you wanted me to, what would you do with me? (You can do ANYTHING you want, anything goes, and you won't get in trouble...) What would you do..? Reply and then repost this in your journal...you might be surprised with the responses you get. They could make you laugh, smile or something altogether different.

Comments

[siriusly-punk.livejournal.com]

*is amused and taken aback* Just made a post like this in journal *snork*

To the meme: First, I'd load you up with millions of books and MAKE YOU READ THEM (but not right then : P) Then, I'd make you play dressup with me, because everyone says I have the coolest clothes and you seem like someone with whom playing dressup would be loads of fun. We'd play music too loud and sing along to the lyrics and dance like idiots. But it wouldn't matter cuz no one would know. Then I'd make you talk to me, because it seems like we have really similar problems right now.

[axeslade.livejournal.com]

sounds like a blast ~_^

[spacequeen.livejournal.com]

I'd make you tell me all of your sexual fantasies in detail. Who, where, why when, how and what!!! :D

[bitexmarks.livejournal.com]

well i'd make you play 'cornflake girl' for me over and over again cuz that's a cooool Tori song, then we'd sit on the floor on a ton of cusions, eat junk food till we explode while you tell me your most insane fantasies!
bitexmarks

[axeslade.livejournal.com]

I find it amusing that both you and spacequeen want to hear about my fantasies ~_^

[bitexmarks.livejournal.com]

its just cuz were both sick puppies curious.
bitexmarks