You're using your headphones to drown out your mind

I have three finals tomorrow, all within fifteen minutes of each other (tho there are two I can get out of early if I finish, so there's that), and then work. Tomorrow will be a very long day.

Took my math final. Have a dread feeling I failed. The painters and pre-painting depression took my brain away. Am trying very hard not to care, but not succeeding.

Will probably go to bed soon. Feeling physically awful, and what's causing that awful is also causing some pretty bad dysphoria right now. And I'm really, really tired.

But after tomorrow no more finals and all I need to do is work and a bit of dorm cleaning and mailng the last of my Christmas cards.

I'm feeling a bit bah humbug this year for no real good reason. Trying to drag myself out of it. Maybe by February

Things to do over Xmas break

Write. Do some work on ASU, try to start some original fiction (and non-fiction) things, including one non-fic project that may get me a teensy tiny amount of money (but no counting those eggs yet)

Read. Good God, I have not been reading anything besides fanfic (and some poetry, as well as the stuff I've had to read for Brit Lit) in ages. I know part of this is the depression. But, bah

Get my head sorted. Yeah, not likely to happen in 3 1/2ish weeks. But...I need to figure out a way to cope if nothing else. This? I cannot live this for five more months.

A happy something

Trans Workers Expected To Win Protection In NY State

Dudes. Considering I'm going to be living there? Providing I do get a standard job (not likely at this point--I really have to start looking into that transcription course, urrrrgh), the idea that I couldn't get fired just for being me? Fucking yes. Now, let's pass a trans-rights-inclusive ENDA so the whole country has this, okay? Also, NY, get on the ball about the gay marriage thing, 'kay? But this awesome, anyway.


And, ooh, caffeine-laced pain pills kicking in like woah. Studying time now, I guess.