Sigh. Just sigh.

Because Mother and I have been fighting about it (off and on), and it's been noted that unless I get more in scholarships, I'll pretty much have to work in the summer and thus probably not see Bri. So. Changing my minor to a teaching one. Luckily, for English ed, I don't have to take much more than what I'm already doing.

But...fuck. Saying goodbye to another piece of my soul.

I have decided, however, that because my grandmother is also pressing for this (in a much crueler way than mother)--I am going to ask for some things in return.

Mainly? That I be referred to by chosen name and pronouns.

Yeah, I don't know how I'm going to get that through to them, either. But I'm going to try. Because this hiding and making due with what bones they throw at me crap? Yeah, not working anymore.

Mainly wriing this so when I wake up (if I ever go to sleep) I remember I don't wuss out.

For personal reference

Within the next week or so, going clothes shopping. Things I must remember to pick up.

A pack (or two) of undershirts. These things run away better than socks, I swear.
Socks
Underwear (boy and girl)
New button-ups and t-shirts (no plaid--have enough)

Things that would be nice:
Gloves
Boxers
New pants--bonus if pinstriped
Androgyous dress shoes (little boys dept?)
A vest that could be modified into a not-vest. Pinstriped.
Pinstriped jacket
Tie(s)

Most of the second list are for something secret-ish. The quick among you could probably figure it out.
Hopefully we'll be hitting up Salvation Army or the Boys Club so I can get a lot of stuff super cheap. I'll have appox. $100 to spend, I believe.