Sep. 13th, 2008

axeslade: (utena/anthy)
Never used to be terribly keen on this song, but listening to it for the first time in ages...

Just because I believe don't mean I don't think as well

Wow.

Unrelated, Anime club was all kinds of awesome. We're going to be watching two series (Gun Grave and The Melancholy of Harui Suzumiya), and also randomly watching episodes of other things (last night it was Mushi-Shi and Pretear). I found it all rather interesting and enjoyable. Also, we're able to rent DVD's from the club officers which is pretty awesome too. Annnd I watched the Utena movie last night. *melts*

I really should get started on some homework, since I have to go into town with grandma tomorrow...
axeslade: (queen of wands future will eat me)
I can't write.

Seriously, been trying for weeks and...nothing. Been trying with a few different projects, nada. I think it's a big part of why I've been crying so much lately. My body really doesn't...writing gets the toxins out. I don't have to write about what's bothering me, just writing is like lancing a boil. And when I can't do it, it all just festers and...

I know part of it is moving and stuff, but really...

I really get scared when I can't write. Like...wondering if this dry spell is going to last the rest of my life. And that scares me so much.

And yet, it's still weird, I'm still the happiest I've been in years. As angry and frustrated as I am, deep down I am happy.

It just doesn't feel like it.
axeslade: (juno cheese)
Better now ^_^ Really wasn't that bad to begin with, but really.

Silly little things make me believe in fate/God because really, I can't just be lucky. Not this lucky.
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