Is there a love lost and found?

So, talking to someone I haven't spoken to in awhile. It's not serious, just BS. But...it feels...NICE. I'm so glad that I'm in a place where I don't flip out over this person. That I can just chit-chat. It's awkward too, like in a 'post break up lets be friends' kind of way, but ya know. I can deal with that. Because this person was such a huge part of my life. They helped me tap into parts of myself that I couldn't have discovered on my own. If it hadn't been for this person and the good and bad they did to me, I wouldn't be who I am. I wouldn't be the wo/man Bri loves. So I really do owe them the courtesy of BS.

I'm sure some of you know who I'm talking about. Please refrain from mentioning on comments. (like anyone comments here anymore...)

At the Arctic Circle playing strip poker

Holy fuck, how did I not know how great this song was before? I've had it for months.

coming of age during the plague
of reagan and bush
watching capitalism gun down democracy
it had this funny effect on me
i guess

i am cancer
i am HIV
and i'm down at the blue jesus
blue cross hospital
just lookin' up from my pillow
feeling blessed

and the mighty multinationals
have monopolized the oxygen
so it's as easy as breathing
for us all to participate

yes they're buying and selling
off shares of air
and you know it's all around you
but it's hard to point and say "there"
so you just sit on your hands
and quietly contemplate

your next bold move
the next thing you're gonna need to prove
to yourself

what a waste of thumbs that are opposable
to make machines that are disposable
and sell them to seagulls flying in circles
around one big right wing

yes, the left wing was broken long ago
by the slingshot of cointelpro
and now it's so hard to have faith in
anything

especially our next bold move
or the next thing we're gonna need to prove
to ourselves

HA!

Female Score: 454
Male Score: 493

The Gender Genie thinks the author of this passage is: male!

Teehee. I just like that the split was pretty close. Going to try it with a few more blog entries. *skips away*

I got a heart full of rubber bands

I just found a college that offers a English/CW master's approximately 44 miles from Bri, which is a helluva lot better than 1000+. Damn, I am going to bust ass to keep my grades up and get financial aid this year, and try really hard to prove I can live on my own so the family might help me move.

I'm trying so hard not to get my hopes up in fears they might get broken. But it's hard. I know we can survive four years. I'd just really rather not.