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Headache+period finally showing up+no Breaking Dawn=cranky Alicia.

But I have chocolate. And Tori. So things could, theoretically, be worse.

I warn myself of the blackness in my chest....

Note to self: never again combine the first day of your period, caffeine, and The L Word.

God, I feel like...no, I am a wreck. Inside I'm just freaking out so bad. I know part of it is because Bette and Tina make me think of me and Bri, and I'm missing her, and Lisa reminds me of myself and it's so hard to see myself that way and hear the things that are said to her, and...

I'm not crying, but I wish I was. Maybe then the tension would leave and I wouldn't think about what I'm thinking about.

The things we learn from wikipedia...

Boi may also refer to a female-born or female-bodied person—sometimes transsexual, transgendered, or intersexed, sometimes not—that generally does not identify as, or only partially identifies as feminine, female, a girl, or a woman. Some "bois" identify as one or more of these, but they almost always identify as lesbians, dykes, or queers. Many are also genderqueer or practice genderfuck. Bois may prefer a range of pronouns, including "he", "she", or gender-neutral pronouns such as "hir", "sie", "zie", and "ey". The term has found increasing usage in the larger LGBT culture.

I can't believe I never looked this up before...boi...I think I like that better than wo/man. I mean, really, how do you work a / into conversation?

Hmm...more labels to bounce around in my head....

There isn't that much ocean

I've joined an LDR forum, but just looking through...I don't feel like I belong. They all seem to be straight couples. And it just feels...wrong. So I started searching...not on a forum, but I found this, and it just....

I'm in a lesbian long distance relationship. My girlfriend and I have been together for approximately 5 yrs now and most of it has been spent away from each other. We're both from the Caribbean, however I spent my college bound years in the US and she opted for studies in our home country. That arrangement lasted for 3 yrs. I returned home and we spent a year together.
Now she is in another country studying, so we're back to square one almost. It doesn't get easier I suppose. Every time I leave her I feel the same loneliness I have been feeling for the past 4 years but I've never regretted it and I made the choice to be with her because she's the girl I've always wanted and I'm committed to making our relationship work.
It is taxing, emotionally and physically, but we're both looking forward to the day when we can be completely together. Hopefully within the next couple of years.

My heart melted a teeny bit when I read that.

I've never regretted it and I made the choice to be with her because she's the girl I've always wanted and I'm committed to making our relationship work.

Okay. I can live. It won't be pleasant, but it'll be more than worth it.