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So, one of my friends is going to a gender specialist tomorrow. I'm really glad for...okay, I'll say her for now, as this person is still very much questioning. But at the same time I'm jealous. This person is very unsure if it will do any good, blah blah...while I'd give anything to have more help than what I've had. I LOVE the conselor I had in high school-so much more helpful than the one in middle school. But...she kept (up until the whole thing with my darling, anyway) seeming to try to convince me it was a phase. Trying to get me to take pride in my body, a body which DISGUSTS me, and has for...well, if I think about it, a really long time. I remember feeling so awkward when I began getting breasts, hating them so much right off because they just got in the way and made me feel strange....and I would have given so much to have someone to talk to about this who wasn't always saying 'well you're young, you had a rough introduction to your sexuality (aside: this was referring the abuse of some friends and people assuming when I was quite young that I was gay), that kind of thing will confuse a person'...to have someone go 'well, maybe you should explore this more, here's some resources'. That would have made such a difference.

Yeah...another rambly post, but this is the latest I've stayed up in weeks (think the body is still running on NY time), I'm cold and slightly hungry and now kind of just...meh.

If not for you, the stars would not be new

Found another very pretty comic: YU+ME: dream.

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Ya know...earlier I was kind of having an argument about myself with things, but reading YU+ME....all the mushy/smutty bits with Lia and Fiona...I melted a little, and it wasn't just because of the hotness. I just...*sigh*

God, I'm already looking forward to next summer. This is saaaad.