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God I wish I could write something. I have ideas coming out my ears, but I can't put any of them down. I want a functioning computer in my room again, sighhh.

But Gackt makes me happy. So all is right with the world.

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This song is so me, which is very much not a good thing.

Alanis Morissette
So Unsexy

"So Unsexy"

Oh these little rejections how they add up quickly
One small sideways look and I feel so ungood
Somewhere along the way I think I gave you the power to make
Me feel the way I thought only my father could

Oh these little rejections how they seem so real to me
One forgotten birthday I'm all but cooked
How these little abandonments seem to sting so easily
I'm 13 again am I 13 for good?

I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful
So unloved for someone so fine
I can feel so boring for someone so interesting
So ignorant for someone of sound mind

Oh these little protections how they fail to serve me
One forgotten phone call and I'm deflated
Oh these little defenses how they fail to comfort me
Your hand pulling away and I'm devastated

When will you stop leaving baby?
When will I stop deserting baby?
When will I start staying with myself?

Oh these little projections how they keep springing from me
I jump my ship as I take it personally
Oh these little rejections how they disappear quickly
The moment I decide not to abandon me

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I am so sick of my school. I found out from Amber a bit ago that ID pics were taken over the last two days, was never notified and the school website is a fucking joke. So I'll have my ID pic taken after school starts. That, and the fact I was never told when interviews for that job were and that I was unable to take my math class this summer really aren't a good way to go into my senior year.

Fuck fuck fuck.

*sigh*