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Fuck it. I was told last night when mum got home that because of the van dying yesterday, I won't be getting ADP on the release date. This shouldn't upset me so, but it does. Because life keeps letting my mother wheedle out of her promises, and that's really pissing me off. I probably won't get to see T this summer because of the van issue and because of the damn summer school, the least I want is the new album right away, and she promised me that was going to happen too, and...FUCK! Life's kinda kicking my ass right now, so this was really going to be the highlight of the rest of the semester, so I'm really upset. Sorry for rambling about it when I'm sure others have more pressing problems.

EDIT: Wasn't quite clear since I wrote this at 5 in the morning...the reason I can't get ADP is the money factor (money that will go into fixing the van) not the transport.

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I have too much to do this weekend. I am seriously at the point where I want to tell the world to fuck itself. Today wasn't *bad* per se, just...everything's kinda building up, and I can feel myself reaching the breaking point so fast it ain't funny. I cried today during group when I was talking about how I won't be able to get ADP, because like I said, that's the ONE THING I've been looking forward to for months. Finishing junior year? Not a big deal. Summer...summer school/ACT shit is going to eat that. So ADP is all I've had to really keep myself chipper. That's gone to hell, so I'm really really pissy now. I didn't PMS major this month, so maybe my hormones are coming back to bite me in the ass. I don't know. All I know is I really feel like crap and don't know how to fix it.

Meet me in the dark...

Okay, in an attempt to drag myself out of the nice little pit of self pity I've dug...the bit of vampire story I've written. Like I said before, I don't know when this bit takes place. Obviously this needs a lot of work. I think it's really a bit of character planning, since it shows a good deal of Pamela and Ambrose's personalities (though really more Ambrose's, which makes sense I guess since it's from his POV). Constructive crit is loved, I'll answer what questions I can.

( “I just can’t live without you. That’s all.” )

*sighhhh*

Okay, just spoke to my mom. Apparently there was a misunderstanding last night. Odds are I WILL get ADP this month, just not as soon as I would've liked. She was making it sound like it'd be months, but I guess that's what happens when we're both running on very little sleep. Yay!