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So um...yeah...I'm a bit better than yesterday, but that could change real fast. I'm already kind of on shaky ground. But, dad said we can get another dog and we MIGHT get it today, we're going to the pound to get a neutered male since another female might piss Ruby off. We'll see if that does anything for my mood, wouldn't count on it.

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I will soon be a member of the Nemi fanlisting Wee. How sad is it that a comic about a Goth girl makes me so happy? Or that it's one of the few things I've got to be happy about right now...even listening to Tori is hard, some songs bring up issues I don't want to deal with right now.

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So just got back from town a bit ago.

Saw two dogs we liked. Tomorrow we're going in with Ruby to see what she thinks of them.

I'm too wiped to be depressed, guess that's something, right?

Right.

And we have ice cream. I've had two fudge bars and I'll probably have a big bowl of vanilla ice cream with chocolate syrup and Coke soon.

EDIT: Mum bought our emergency (ONLY) cell phones today. That should help my panic attacks when she's rather late picking me up and such. At the very least I can know for sure I can dial for help should I need it and Bri's not there to tackle whatever is scaring me.

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To those concerned after last night's rantings.

I WILL be okay.

I'm not right now, but I will be.

Bri is helping, more than she fuckin' knows. spacequeen is helping. lifebytes_yaya is helping. frozen_pixie is helping in her random way. The girls are helping, ice cream is helping, the wonderful people at Toriphorums are helping. I'm getting there. I'm still smashed up, and I still want to cry and scream and break things.

But I've got my rocks, and you all are solid. And I love you. More than you will ever know.

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I finished watching Thumbelina about half an hour ago, yayyyyy. Made me much happier. Now, if I can act out some of the ideas the ladies got from it...*sigh*