Pretending to be happy when I'm anything but

Watched Underworld Evolution a bit ago. Gooood. I liked the first one as well, even though neither got great reviews. I probably liked it so much because I hadn't seen a good werewolf or vampire movie in quite sometime, and I have a huge crush on Kate Beckinsale (that can't be spelled right) and I really needed some soft smut right now. It wasn't enough, I'm still...not good, but...*sigh*better, a bit.

This brightened my day...

P!nk: U + Ur Hand video

P!nk + red hair + bitchiness=smexy beyond all reason. I am sooo jealous of Carey Hart (her husband), that man is one lucky bastard.

It's been one of those days...

Top 16 Signs Your Inner Child Is Unhappy

15. Spends all day sulking in your lower intestine

Yeah...if my DVD player were working...I'd be in my jammies watching Thumbelina. One of those f'in days.

Not dead, just floating

Okay, so I'm flooding you guys and I'm sorry I'm just...in that place I don't want to be again. I know it's probably nothing, but I can't stop this....whatever it is. My heart and brain are in a war over who's right and...I can't explain but...I wish I lived in town so I could just run and get a hug and grape pop from Bri. As it is....I'm gonna go find that charm she gave me and dig it into my palm for awhile. And see if I can track down my teddy bear, or at least grab some other plushie. I need it. And I need to cry, I've needed to cry since Saturday, but I fuckin' can't for whatever reason. And I wish mom would accept that I am depressed some times, and would stop telling me I'm NOT because I AM and I need SOMEONE....and there's things I can't say right now. But...I'll be okay. I just don't know if the girls will be the same when we come out of this.