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Well, today was okay. My brain totally died after my second hour World History test, but it picked up for English when I had to do my speech (went off FAB!). I'm def. going to Bri's tomorrow, which means I have a helluva lot to do tonight. I have to spell check/code the next episode of velvetlounge and up it early tomorrow morning, and then I still have to do my math homework that's due tomorrow *giggle*

I have to learn

Another great Tori quote that I've come to realize the truth in lately...

I’m not afraid of grief. You might cry, you might even cry so much that there are no more tears left inside of you that you feel you’ve become dry, but still your grief lets you make decisions and lets you grow as a person. Everything depends upon how you handle it, if you accept your grief, your loss and your mourning or if you try to push it away. I think you have to live through it, that’s my personal belief, because it has consequences. [The Inside Connection - June 1998]

And now the lyrics to one of my absoulte favorite Tori songs with the parts that have been hitting hard in bold.

Tori Amos
Hotel

met 'em in a hotel
met 'em in a hotel
beneath ground
tell him he's missing
tell me this is one for
lollipop gestapo
you were wild
where are you now
you were wild
where are you now
give me more
give me more
give me more
i have to learn to let you crash down
i have to learn to let you crash down
i have to learn to let you crash
met 'em in a hotel
met 'em in a hotel
you say he's the biggest thing
there'll be this year
i guess that what i'm seeking
i guess that what i'm seeking
isn't here
met him in a hotel
met him in a guess world
guessed anyone but you
you were wild
where are you now
you were wild
where are you now
give me more
give me more
give me more
i have to learn to let you crash down
where are the velvets
where are the velvets
where are the velvets
when you're coming down
you were wild
where are you now
you were wild
where are you now
king solomon's mines
exit 75
i'm still alive
i'm still alive
i'm still alive

School Days! School Days!

Stuff I just remembered.

If I fail geometry, I'll be a sophomore again next year because I'll be lacking half a credit unless I can, by some sort of miracle, add another class for the coming semester. Now I'd only be a sophomore for one semester but it could fuck my english stuff if I'm going to do AP 11. However, mum and I both realize I'm probably going to fail geometry, so she's thinking of just pulling me out since I have two sciences next semester and the stress might be too much. But still I'm really upset about it, since I wanted to take informal geometry since that's much slower.

Sigh.