Just a little somethin....

[axeslade]

Disclaimer: Not mine. I've just heard Tori Amos' 'Girl' for the first time, and well...it made me think of my favorite VG gal.

Title: In The Shadow
Rating: R
Reasons: Mild language/sexual references
Genres: Angst
Feedback: axebichick@yahoo.com

~And in the shadow she crawls, clutching her faded photograph. My image under her thumb yes with a message for my heart. She's been everybody else's girl, maybe one day she'll be her own~-Tori Amos 'Girl'

That's where she always was. Standing in the shadows, just on the edge of the spotlight. Watching him drink applause and adoration while she starved for just a little affection. She knew she'd turned into his slave, and some times she thought of leaving. Telling him she didn't need him anymore, give him a gorgeous screaming tirade and then leave his life forever. But there was just one little problem.

It wasn't that she couldn't continue life without him. She could. She wasn't as dumb as she put on, she could find work somewhere. It wouldn't be easy, but she could start over. And it wasn't that she didn't want to fuck things up for him, she didn't care if her leaving caused an uproar, he deserved to have his heart torn open a little. No, it wasn't anything as complex as that. She let herself be made a zombie like slave and occasional bored lay for someone who didn't give a damn about her because, despite her better judgement and the fact that he had every obviously been claimed by the leather-clad wolf, she loved the bastard. And so she submitted to a cold life in the shadows, hoping that maybe someday, for just a few moments, she'd been given a tiny sunbeam of affection.

Comments

[bitexmarks.livejournal.com]

damn, girl, this was killer, especially the first paragraph, that thrust me deep into outter space. niiiiiiice!
bitexmarks

[axeslade.livejournal.com]

thanks! I think I've found my own nice little niche in writing Mandy, for some reason I can really get into her skin.

[spacequeen.livejournal.com]

You are the undisputed Queen of Mandy angst. My heart bleeds every time I read her through your eyes. She's too good for him. I should have her instead. Sigh. I would treat her better.

(one quick question: since you made a reference to a "leather-clad wolf", you are referring to Brian and not Curt, right?)

[axeslade.livejournal.com]

yep yep. The muses were trying to avoid using names anywhere in this, as they do sometimes when they're trying to show that they're smarter than me.

[yesido.livejournal.com]

awww... that's so sad. i like the way you handle mandy; you always do a nice job with her.