Curt/Brian oneshot

[axeslade]

Disclaimer: Not mine. To Brianna, for shipping C/B. AU. Curt's sort of OOC, forgive me.

Title: Fade Away
Rating: R
Reasons: Sexual content/language
Genres: Drama/Romance/Angst

~You fade away, one last kiss before you fade away. The one you once adored will fade away. Lies you can't ignore you soon repay as you fade away~-The Tea Party 'Psychopomp'

"Brian?"
Brian turned away, though all he wanted to do was go away from these assholes and hold Curt, never let him go.
He wasn't looking, but he could tell the moment Curt's heart broke. Many would have let it do so quietly, or sadly. But not Curt. He broke with anger.
"Fuck you! Fuck you mother fucker!"
Brian tuned out then, not hearing the rest of the swears, or Jerry's words, or even his responses to his manager. All he could focus on was Curt thrashing around in the booth, knowing that deep inside he was curled up sobbing. It hurt Brian more to see him like this, knowing he wasn't angry but hurt. Knowing he had caused the hurt.
Jerry and the other lackies walked out then, leaving Brian and Curt to face off. Curt kept raving for a few minutes until Brian sat back in one of the chairs, staring at his lover. Then Curt threw the sound booths door open, storming out.
"What the fuck was that about Brian?"
"Curt, you have to admit-" Brian tried talking to him calmly, hoping to let him down gently, but Curt refused to let it work.
"I didn't make any fucking changes."
"You didn't mean to."
"You're siding with them?"
"Curt..." he sighed, wishing Jerry could be the one to do with so he'd just have to deal with Curt's anger secondhand.
"Jerry's not extending your contract."
"And I'm supposed to be surprised?" Curt took out a cigarette, lighting it and taking a quick, long drag.
"So what now, I just hide in the hotel with Mandy while you go prancing about with some new pretty boy, waiting in your bedroom patiently each night?"
Brian felt a sob filling his throat. He wished it could be that easy. God, he'd stand with a swamp monster if he could stay with Curt. But he knew Jerry wouldn't go for it. He'd say that Curt had to go because he was making it impossible for Brian to be 'convincing' with the new toy.
"It's not that easy Curt."
Curt dropped his cigarette, passively crushing it out.
"Bri? What're you saying?"
"I'm saying...it's over Curt. The album, us..."
"No" Curt swung a leg over Brian's, straddling him and passionately kissing his neck.
"Please don't say that Bri. Don't scare me like that. I'll do anything you want. I won't get jealous of the new fuck toy Jerry sets you with, we can go back to what we were before. I'll let you tie me down like you've been pestering me..."
Brian's heart sunk to his stomach as he saw his usually dominant lover begging and crying, bargaining with the promise of giving into one of his deepest fears. He shoved Curt away, standing up and rubbing his neck, feeling where Curt's warm mouth had been.
"I'm sorry Curt. I can't do that to you. I've seen what living that sort of life has done to Mandy, I don't want it to happen to you."
Curt stood up as well, wrapping his arms around Brian and sobbing.
"Please Bri....please....don't do this to me..."
Brian twisted in his lover's arms, burying his head in his chest, pressing a hand against his heart.
"Shhh...don't cry luv. I don't want to do this, you know that don't you?" the only answer was a sob. He tilted his head up, kissing Curt's chin. Curt lowered his head, taking Brian's lips passionately in his own. A thrill went through Brian's body, different from any other he'd felt when he and Curt were together. That usual feeling of love mixed with the pain of knowing this would be their last time together.
Curt wrapped his arms across Brian's back, slipping his fingers under his shirt. He pulled away as he peeled the fabric off Brian's lithe body, pressing his mouth against Brian's ear.
"Love you Bri. Love you forever" he murmured as he kissed Brian's neck, shoulders, chest. Brian shuddered, rolling his head back, lacing his fingers in Curt's bleached hair as a warm tongue circled his right nipple, calloused fingers pinching the left one.
"Love you too Curt...even if we're not together..." he gripped Curt's shoulders, gently lifting his black t-shirt away, gasping as he felt the damp sweat on Curt's pale skin under his fingers. Then he felt Curt's fingers on his waistband, saw Curt lowering himself to his knees. His pants slid down to his ankles and Curt's warm mouth enveloped his cock He closed his eyes to get control of himself for a moment, then pulled away knelt down as well, taking Curt's face in his hands.
"Not tonight."
"But..."
"I don't want you to use up all your energy just making me happy" he gently shoved Curt onto the soft carpet, kissing him deeply. He tasted the tears before he saw them, trembling as he felt Curt's broken sobs jerking under his chest. After pulling out of the kiss, gently biting Curt's lips, he moved his mouth to his cheeks, kissing and licking away the tear tracks. Curt trembled, running his hands down the length of Brian's body to cup his ass, pulling him closer.
Brian smiled sadly, burying his face in his love's shoulder, inhaling his uniquely animalistic scent before kissing his way down to his waist, nuzzling the nest of hair. Curt groaned loudly, shoving away from Brian and twisting onto his stomach. He looked back for a moment, whispering in a timid voice.
"Fuck me."
Brian nodded.
"But not like this" he took Curt's arm, twisting him back around and slipping his hands under his knees, bending his legs.
"So I can see your face."
Tears filled Curt's eyes again and he hastily wiped them away.
"Do it."
Brian swallowed, slipping two fingers into his mouth and slicking them with saliva. He gently slid them into Curt's body, shivering as a look of ecsastic pain came over Curt's face. He gently stroked his core for a few moments, then pulled back. He laid ontop of Curt, watching his woflish eyes change from a dark unidentified colour to bright blue as he twisted when Brian entered him. Brian kissed him, keeping their mouths together through several slow thrusts. Even with the lovingly lax pace, Brian felt himself grow tense quickly. He broke away from Curt's mouth, slipping a hand down to his cock while sucking on his nipple. Curt sighed, caressing his love's shoulders.
"Brian..." he murmured, letting out a keening, loving howl as he saw the rainbow bursts behind his eyes. Brian moaned with him, shaking and crying as Curt continued to kiss and touch him.
After they'd calmed down and cleaned up, Brian lay curled up in Curt's arms, wishing this night would never end.
Curt pressed his mouth against Brian's hair, whispering softly.
"Bri?"
"Hmm?"
"I have an idea."
"What?"
Curt whispered his plan and Brian felt a smile growing on his face.
"See, this is why I love you" he laughed, turning his face to Curt. Curt grinned, kissing him passionately, ending it with a blood-drawing bite.

Brian watched as Curt stormed past his window and stood up, pulling the frame up.
"GO ON THEN! BACK TO YOUR WOLVES! YOUR JUNKIE TWERPS! YOUR BLOODY SHOCK TREATMENT! AND FUCK YOU TOO!"
He glanced at Mandy, hoping his tear streaked face was convincing. Then he slammed the window frame back down, lying on the bed. He watched the next morning as Curt left with an expression of cold indifference, knowing he'd see him again soon enough.

"So, how do you think it went?"
"I saw it on the news. Fucking awesome man. I almost believed it was real for a minute until I sobered up."
"Jack talked to you, right?"
"Mmm hmm. We're gonna start on the record soon."
"Fab."
"I miss you Bri."
"Miss you too."
"I'll see you when the record's finished right?"
"Yeah. God, I don't know if I can wait that long."
"It's worth it babe. By then everything else will have blown over and Mandy'll have gotten tired of you."
Brian laughed quietly.
"Yeah."
"Love you."
"Love you too" he blew a kiss into the reciever, setting the phone back on it's cradle.

"Did you..."
"No, I didn't see him."
Cut pretended to be hurt. Couldn't let Mandy know he knew she'd seen Brian because he had as well. He'd glanced at him several times during the show, letting him know that even though months of their only contact being the phone he still loved him as much as that day almost two years ago when they'd decided to part. Now he shoved past the groupies, smiling at one boy with spray-painted blue hair, walking out onto the roof.
He saw him there, standing with a cigarette in one hand. He lifted his head up, smiling. He tossed the fag and his hat aside, walking to Curt and wrapping his arms around him. Curt hugged him close, kissing him.
"Mmm....you're delicious."
"And you're warm" Brian smiled, looking up at his lover.
"God, it was hell but it was worth it. I can really have you now. No more cameras, no more hidden agendas..." he sighed, nuzzling Curt's shoulder.
"Did you talk to Shannon?" Curt whispered.
"Mmm hmm..." Brian slid a hand into Curt's pants, bringing his lover to his knees.
"She already found a guy who's willing to do it. It'll take a few years to get everything set up, but it'll work."
"Good. Couldn't let the mysteries around you dissaper" Curt smiled as he thought of how they'd keep everyone from talking about what really had happened to Brian Slade. All the loose ends all tied up, put away. It was just them in a way it never had been. He stripped away Brian's trenchcoat, laughing when he saw he wasn't wearing anything else. He knelt behind his love, taking off his own pants and wrapping his arms around Brian. He softly pressed inside his body, resting his chin on his shoulder. Then he looked up, laughing as the white spark streaked across the sky.
"Make a wish..."

Comments

[ashersembrace.livejournal.com]

Awww man why couldn't the movie have ended like this........I prefer your ending much more! Great Job can't tell fom this you haven't written VG in awhile. I look forward to more from you.

[safilix-shark.livejournal.com]

Honestly: It's good. I like it. But I think someone somewhere said that Curt sort of went from being fine to suddenly distraught..I agree it sort of threw me off. Otherwise I like it fine.



..
But the muses still ship C/A

[axeslade.livejournal.com]

yeah, as mentioned before...when the muses decide to make a change like that, as they did with Curt, I usually go with it. I think what they were going for was showing Curt's resolve breaking or...something? I don't know, it's 5:50, too early to work into the girl's psyches.

[spacequeen.livejournal.com]

I like it. Your stories always have such an unexpected twist! :D Only part I sort of got lost is, Shannon found a guy who's willing to do it. Do what?

[axeslade.livejournal.com]

supposed to refer to the whole Tommy Stone thing....clear things up?

[spacequeen.livejournal.com]

That's what I thought. Just making sure, thanks. I love the ending. And I'm usually not happy with C/B fics, because everyone ignores the whole Tommy Stone thing. But the way you addressed it, it is very believable and logical. If the movie had ended this way, I would have been satisfied, even though I'm a die-hard Curt/Arthur shipper(as you well know). I was actually happy for Curt and Brian to be together. Thumbs up!! :D

[sor-bet.livejournal.com]

I didn't think Curt was too OOC. In the film it seems like he loved Brian more than Brian loved him, and that's why he got so upset in the studio. There could definitely have been begging before we saw him storm off into the night.

People sure get inspired by the blood mentioned in the script that didn't show up in the movie! This is the best explanation I've read for it so far.

The only thing I don't like about the fic is, Arthur doesn't get HIS wish. ;-) *snuggles poor, non-shagged Arthur*

[spacequeen.livejournal.com]

At first I thought that Curt was OOC, but then I reflected on his abusive childhood and how all he ever really wanted was to be loved. So it began to make sense. And, *snuggles you for snuggling Arthur*.

[axeslade.livejournal.com]

*C/B muses go to break up the C/Anses*I'm glad Curt's actions are finally beginning to clear up for people. Then again, it all just dawned on me late last night after posting. Damn head colds.

[spacequeen.livejournal.com]

I love happy endings! :) I always like the twist in your stories!

[bitexmarks.livejournal.com]

ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! that was fantastic! so sensual and with a happy ending, too! great work. i trully enjoyed reading this. :)
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