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axesladeCue the 'my nerves are on the outside of my body' time of the month, where I'm over sensitive and anxiety ridden all the time.
Though at least this time it's about things that are real concerns. I was up until 4 or 5 freaking about money and math, instead of abstract concerns about NE and relationship wiggity-whack (it's all cool, Adelai's mind is making problems where there are none, because sie can't just be fucking happy, can sie?). Okay. Those snuck in there too, because they always do because it's all interconnected in this weird thing in my head. But...yeah. Even though some of my anxieties are concrete and real and worth worry, it's no better than those abstract problems and I still had to bite my pillow to keep from screaming and waking up my roommate (who may not have been asleep, but whatever, others come before me ALWAYS, fuck).
This song makes it a bit better, though. <3 Billy Joel.
Though at least this time it's about things that are real concerns. I was up until 4 or 5 freaking about money and math, instead of abstract concerns about NE and relationship wiggity-whack (it's all cool, Adelai's mind is making problems where there are none, because sie can't just be fucking happy, can sie?). Okay. Those snuck in there too, because they always do because it's all interconnected in this weird thing in my head. But...yeah. Even though some of my anxieties are concrete and real and worth worry, it's no better than those abstract problems and I still had to bite my pillow to keep from screaming and waking up my roommate (who may not have been asleep, but whatever, others come before me ALWAYS, fuck).
This song makes it a bit better, though. <3 Billy Joel.
