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[axeslade]

Something I forgot to mention...today, the questioning of my gender identity came up again, mentally anyway. Now, I have no desire to permenantly physically change my gender. But today, during my open block, I was seriously considering asking my teachers to refer to me by the realitively gender neutral 'Axe'. This wouldn't be a huge adjustment for me, so many people online have been using it as my nickname for a few years. I'm also reaching a point where I want to leave a blank in things that ask for my gender. But...I dunno, I wish people hadn't had such problems with schedules so I could talk to Paula.

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[lifebytes-yaya.livejournal.com]

i love transexuals. not saying u should become one becuase i like them, hahaha im just saying u should do what u want

[axeslade.livejournal.com]

yeah. I'm just...I don't know, this could be a one day/week/month thing and changing my name might be a big leap. I mean, I'd never OFFICALLY change it, and my really close luvies like Bri wouldn't be FORCED to call me Axe, but ya know. Yeah, it's awkward...

[rid-of-her.livejournal.com]

do whatever your little heart desires.

joan jett and the blackhearts....your rock girly :o)

[axeslade.livejournal.com]

your icon=sex. I've always loved that set of pics (I have the opened eyed version on my wall). My heart, soul, and brain are having some talks. Muses are staying out of it, they know better than to meddle with gender issues, as they're screwed up enough themselves (I've got trannies of both varities, crossdressers, an androgynus someone and a hermaphrodite someone...why my writing is so odd), so I'm just...waiting until my counselors schedule clears up, sigh.

Joan Jett...sigh, love her. Closing words, quoth Joan: I don't give a damn 'bout my bad reputation.

[lifebytes-yaya.livejournal.com]

i see...

[spacequeen.livejournal.com]

What kinds of issues do you have? Sorry to be dense. I just want to understand better.

I think 'Axe' is lovely, btw.

[axeslade.livejournal.com]

you're not dense, it's actually kind of hard to understand. I want to 'intergrate my animus' (quoth Tori Amos) better. I have never had a desire to be fully male, but as you know being fully female is icky too, so I'd like to do my ideal androgynus thing on a different level than I have been the past few years. I think I needed to wait until I'd dealt with my anger towards men (again, you know why) to deal with the integrating of my 'male spirit',so now I'm trying ot catch up on two lost years (though my counselor still wants me to wait to even change my name, sigh)

[spacequeen.livejournal.com]

Thank you for explaining. You are such a delightfully complex person. I'm so glad to know you! ♥ Adolescence would have been such an easier time had I known you then.

[axeslade.livejournal.com]

You are such a delightfully complex person

I loved that, it just sounded so...weirdly nice ~_^ *glitterkiss*