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I'm starting to feel really excited about NaNo. Probably because I A) Finally have an idea as to how the rest of the semester will play out and how I'm going to make things work, B) Ideas have been bubbling in my head all day, and woah and C) I've really started rejecting things said by other writers that don't work for me/are a bit toxic for me emotionally. For example: The roommate can't understand how writing fic can help me write original fiction. For her, jumping back into writing after a serious dry spell is easy. Not so much for me. I find it hard to tap back into the original characters sometimes, so going to a world that's at least somewhat built is less scary. Maybe after I play around here, going back to Bailey and Irving (or maybe Mandy, god, I'm sorry I've neglected you hun) won't be so intimdiating. Also? The fact that any words are better than no words. God, I wish she'd get that.
Another practice, from her brother: just sit down and write. In theory, so easy. In practice? I've had trouble with that. The last time I really did that without much quality control was when I wrote Pearlshine, and I was in a pretty deep dark place then (due to the total dissolution of that not-relationship and Bri moving and senioritis, blah blah). After that? Inner editor came back. So, yeah, for some of us shutting up that little voice takes a lot of work.
Also rejecting my own (shameful) idea, deep down, that fic isn't worth anything. I blame my grandmother and her recent rants about how I should be a teacher because I could make money at it while I'll never make money as a writer because I don't write things that seem like they could be commercial successful. I should know better than a lot of people around me (in r/l) how much fanfic can affect other people and how much it is worth at certain times, even if that worth isn't calculated in money.

...long story short, I'm feeling much better about myself writing wise, and is it November yet?

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From that last meme (which I'll link to again in the morning), questions from the lovely merry_treat)


1. Who is your favorite character, from any fandom? Least favorite? Character you are most indifferent about? Why?
Using Torchwood. This is so cliche for this fandom. But right now? Jack Harkness. I think it's because he really is so much more complex than a lot of characters in media these days (despite how he is treated within Doctor Who, grumble). He's got layers (not so very unlike an ogre, heh). He's dark and twisty because of things he's done, the things that happened to him when he was young, the man he was and the man he can't remember being and because he can't fucking die and he'll lose everyone. At the same time, he's so light and fun and is so free about sex because it's just sex and the bits and bobs of those involved, and how many are involved, don't matter as long as a good time is had by all. Layers, man.
Least favorite? Gah. I'm going to get lashed for this. Gwen Cooper. Gargh. I just...I really dislike how she doesn't seem to suffer the consequences of her actions, or to think them through (the Retcon incident. I know others will argue with me on this, but damn, just, no). I think she's much less sympathetic/emphatic than RTD tries to make us believe she is. She's emphatic when it's convenient to be. She makes snap judgments so easily, and I really can't stand that (ageism in Small Worlds, urgh). I want to not hate her, but she makes it so hard to feel anything for her. Oh, and the fact that everyone dies in Torchwood...except Gwen! Bargh.
Indifferent...hm. Kind of switching fandoms but not. Rose Tyler. One, I haven't seen enough Who to make a judgment and two...meh. I think she's a ditz sometimes and want to slap her, but I don't hate her. She's just...there, for me.

2. Describe your ideal dessert.
Oooh. Man. Um. Right now, because my brain just said this would sound delicious--vanilla ice cream with crumbled brownie and/or chocolate cookie bits with warm melty Nutella. I have no idea if this is feasbile, but man, I want this right now.

3. You are trapped in an elevator with three other people for three hours before you are rescued. Who are they, and how do you all keep from going nuts?
Assuming you meant they are non famous: Karissa, Bri, Melody. We talk Torchwood. I'm sure we'd argue about things, but it'd be fun.

4. Tell me about your first pet, if you had one. If not, what pet did you always wish you could have?
A big Perenese/golden lab/god knows what else-mix named Bear. I had her before I could remember until shortly after my--tenth birthday, I think. She was a big old sweetie. Didn't do much, but she was good for hugs and didn't misbehave. When my cat was young and stupider than she is now and would jump into the dogs' yard, Bear would sit on/over her to prevent our other dog from eating her. She was a very maternal dog, and for her sake I wish she could have had puppies just once. She would have made a great mother.

5. What did you always want to be when you grew up? Is this still your dream? If not, what career path are you choosing instead?
When I was an itty-bitty(er) thing, I wanted to be a vet. Once I realized I could not handle animals dying on my table (and how much I sucked at math/science) I decided to be a writer. I still want to pursue this, though...well, reality may force me to choose something else until I can make it big.