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Great start to the day: pancakes with strawberries and chocolate syrup and some orange spice tea. Surprisingly good combo.

I'm up early after only five-odd hours of sleep...but I feel okay. Might write in a little bit ^_^

Is that how you measure a man?

So, on facebook...remembered that auditions are on Monday. I'm not really trying for the part, because unless someone could come up and get me from Spearfish 2-3 times a week it couldn't work. Just going for the experience and to see people I haven't seen in awhile.

I'm trying to decide if I'll bind or not. It shouldn't be a big deal, but it is. These people have always seen me as a boobed creature, so I'm sure they'll notice. They're open minded, so it shouldn't be a huge deal, but...I don't know.

I think the bigger issue is...whenever I do these kinds of things around most of the people who knew me before, there's the question of if I want to be a man.

And I don't want to have that ten+ minute conversation. That...and I'm not that sure of the answer anymore. And it's really hard for me to dress as androgynously as I'd like after binding, due to all the layers that are needed. The two actual binding layers, then usually two more so you can't see the binder through the clothing. Usually results in a t-shirt and plaid button up, which isn't the girliest thing ever.

I don't know. Maybe...binders, t-shirt, dress shirt? It's a guy's, but no plaid is involved. And I'm sure I have some really girlie pants...heell, might be a chance to see if I feel better with a skirt if I bind.

Meh murrufle meh. *headdesk* Why does clothing have to be so damn gendered?

I think I'm just trying to talk myself out of going because of this little thing. Because that's like me.

Bisexuals, trisexuals, homo sapiens...

I love this site: Trans 101. A lot of the stuff here doesn't just apply to trans identities and makes me smile.

Nancy Nangeroni, of GenderTalk and formerly of IFGE, said once that gender dysphoria is a healthy disrespect for the cultural gender norm. I think that is the bomb shit.

It should be noted, also, that the DSM-III didn't have GID in it but did have homosexuality in it. Due to the fact that homosexuality and gender-nonconformity are so often seen as being almost synonymous, it is not at ALL farfetched to suggest (and this is not something I came up with, but I completely agree with it) that GID was put in as a replacement for homosexuality and an underhanded way to continue diagnosing homosexuality as a mental disorder

The term "man trapped in a woman's body" or "woman trapped in a man's body" is really a misnomer. Most Trans people don't really want a new body - they just want some parts of their own body altered a bit.)

If Trans people hate their bodies so much, how do they have sex?
Very well, thank you.

Secondly, Trans people aren't just frustrated homosexuals. Gay people would no more welcome sex reassignment than they would welcome a frontal lobotomy. They're fine with their bodies, by and large, and just happen to be gay. Trans people, regardless of their sexual orientation, are NOT fine with their bodies, or at least with the heaps and heaps of gender norms that re enforced upon them as a result of their bodies. Their gender identity (their internal sense of self) and/or gender expression (clothes, mannerisms, makeup or lack thereof, hairstyle, etc.) is significantly outside the norm, to a degree that doesn't really fall within even the norm for feminine gay men or masculine gay women.

Thirdly, not all FTMs are terribly masculine and not all MTFs are terribly feminine. That's another common misconception. Trans people aren't all striving to be nice, normal, heterosexual, pretend-you're-not-Trans people with 2.3 children and a white picket fence. There are FTM drag queens and MTF butch lesbians, for the same reason that FTMs aren't butch lesbians and MTFs aren't femme gay men or drag queens - butch lesbians are women, and femme gay men and drag queens are men. It just goes to show all the more that gender really is infinite, and WAY more complicated than we have language for. But we're doing our best.

I ain't gonna act politically correct...

I find it rather odd that I really, really love this song.

I think it's this part of the chorus:


Go totally crazy
Forget I'm a lady
Men's shirts
Short skirts

That and
I wanna be free to feel the way I feel

I know it's not a horribly deep song. But sometimes, the most light hearted things can hit hard.