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I was going to go to bed at 10:30. Then things kept me from that until 11:30. Okay, so I laid down at 11:30...and then the Haruhi opening theme got stuck in my head from out of freaking nowhere.

*sigh*Okay, going to try bed again, because I really am tired...

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Erika's latest post brought up just how much I loathe the Menstrual Fairy.

Right, for most bio-women, she's just an inconvienence.

But for me...

Ugh.

Wayyyy back when, before I started blogging...when I first went off my hormone shots, I actually eagerly awaited the little bitch. You know, as a sign that I was normal, that my body was actually doing what it was supposed to do. And I was happy when she showed up.

Yeah, I was an idiot.

My cramps used to be hellacious. Now, outside of the debilitating cramp I tend to get in my right leg the day before, not so much. And even that I can live with if I have to.

But...

I don't know. It's just one more thing that makes me gendered when I don't want to be. And unlike a lot of people, I can't safely take birth control of any kind (okay, it probably wouldn't kill me, but it wouldn't be a good idea), and I'm not stupid enough to not eat/exercise so much that it goes away. I could always go the total hysto. route, right? But...I really don't want to go through menopause when I won't have any other hormones to counteract it. At least transmen are usually on T when they have a hysto., but not me. And even if I do something about my ovaries, the damn painters will still show. And I just...sigh.

This video pretty much says how I feel when the period shows up.

Not always, but sometimes I'm just feel uber male (I tend to feel like that in the morning and night when I brush my teeth and junk, don't ask why) and then it shows up and it's like...aargh!

Yeah. Blah. I have another two weeks before it shows...at least if it sticks to what it's been doing the last three months.