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I would have given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I had
But if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know
The first cut is the deepest
...
When it comes to be lucky he's cursed
When it comes to lovin' me, he's worst

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
And I'm sure gonna give you a try
If you want I'll try love again
-Sheryl Crow 'The First Cut Is The Deepest'

Story of my goddamned life *sigh*

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I've never seen writing as truly cathartic before. Stress reliving, yes. Enjoyable, yes. But truly healing....not so much.

Until now.

This is the first story I've done that has actually made me feel better. I think it's due to the connections one of the characters has to something else in my life. I don't like to sack too much on her, but really. Pulling her back away from that situation and bringing her back into my realm completely...it's been a painful experience, to be sure, but it's also been unbelieveably wonderful. I'm able to listen to certain songs again without tearing up. I've developed new assocations with these songs, so it's not so painful to dance to them anymore.

Okay, so maybe one person understands this, but that's okay. I didn't think it was appropriate to post in astindarby, but I had to say it.