In the absence of hope I need to stay in bed

I was so Meredith yesterday...(from Grey's Anatomy)


Cristina: You have a feeling?
Meredith: Yes
Cristina: Okay, what kind of feeling?
Meredith: Like I might die.
Cristina: Today? Tomorrow? In 50 years? We're all going to die eventually. Now we're late! Let's go!
Meredith: Cristina. C'mon!
Cristina: This is me being supportive.
Meredith: Really?
Cristina: Yeah, I'm totally supportive. Go.
Meredith: OK. The man I love has a wife and then he chooses her over me. And that wife takes my dog, OK, she didn't take the dog, I gave it to her, but I didn't mean to give it to her, I meant to give it to him, but that does not change the fact that she's got my McDreamy. And my McDog. She's got my McLife! And what have I got? -sits up-You know, I can't even remember the last time we kissed. 'Cause you never think the last time is the last time, you think there'll be more. You think you have forever, but you don't. [Flops onto pillow] Plus my conditioner decided to stop working and I think I have brittle bones. I just-I just need something to happen. I need a sign that things are going to change. I need a reason to go on. I need some hope. And in the absence of hope, I need to stay in bed and feel like I might die today.
Cristina: [throws back blanket] Whatever - everybody has problems. Now get your ass out of bed and get to work. NOW! Move! Move! Move! [Opens the door to find Izzie and George]
Cristina: We're good to go.

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Okay, so. Pushing past my slight meltdown yesterday. I've submitted a query to Northern Lights Literary Services. I really need/want an agent, if only to take a little stress off my brain. I should know in about a week (five buisness days) if they're interested in seeing a sample.

I learned to grit my teeth and smile
Let 'em think they've boxed me in
But inside I'm still the problem child that I always was
So I guess I win
Na na na na

And anytime I think that I might drown
In all this standard-issue grey
When I'm feelin' small and pushed around
I close the door and draw the shades

I put on my red dress
I put on my red dress
Can't take my red dress away!-Maia Sharp 'Red Dress'

Ah Maia, you really do help me keep going sometimes.