Long time no see

Sorry I've been AWOL guys! I got stuck at Bri's until today because of the snow. I'll try to summarize things.

Saturday afternoon Bri taught me how to play the Digimon card game, and I actually managed to beat her once (which surprisingly didn't bring on the apocolypse), and that night we watched Spirited Away. Soooo gooood. Sunday...not sure what we did Sunday outside of watching Roseanne, which made me happy. Yesterday was mostly spent watching things on the Food network, Italian cooking mmmmmm, artery hardening goodness. Left today, dad picked me up. It sucked because when we got to our road, some neighbor had plowed and piled the snow right in front of our driveway, so we had to walk through three feet of snow for about a quarter mile carrying stuff. I fell twice and my feet were so sore, I ended up losing my shoes about ten steps from the house and then I went to my room and cried for ten minutes because it hurt so bad. Other than that and the migraine that finally snuck in this morning (managed to head it off with excedrin), good weekend!

Hard and restrained and totally cool

I posted this as a comment in someone's journal, and I'm going to put it here to remind myself and let you guys remind me in case I actually think about wimping out...

Paula's just 'concerned' because I'm 'delicate' and 'innocent' and she doesn't want me to get 'hurt'. My mum doesn't care, and that's all that matters. I have been so tempted to tell Paula to fuck off in group, because occasionally the other girls have done the same, and Paula never thinks bad of them, but...you know, it's just not me to do that to people. If she hints that my gender problems are just me trying to find myself again, though, I will do it and storm out of group. I'm that sick of it.


This makes a little more sense in context, but it's the last sentence or two that is really important. I don't think I'll actually tell her to fuck off, I can't do that to an adult it doesn't feel right, but I'll definitely leave group at least for that day. I can't stand her telling me this is a damn phase anymore, I just can't.

It's time to turn the page

I believe in rainbows and all of that. But there are darker colors - the rainbow contains every color. And it's the shade that defines the light.

The word 'confession,' to me, means needing to be absolved, ... I'm not asking for forgiveness. I'm not asking people to understand. I'd like to think that I tell stories and sometimes my life weaves through it.-Tori Amos


( I feel it falling apart )