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So today...Bri's still sick *glares at evil germs* but other than that pretty good. I had group, and the girls there and I are planning to go to the principal and alert him to the fact that we find the skankiness of the cheerleaders disturbing. Apparently (I wasn't there) the V-day rally was really slutty, so...yeah, it probably won't come to anything but we'll see.

I hate that I love this song

Okay, I've been resisting posting about my love for this song for awhile now but...well, as much as I HATE Eminem for his homophobic comments and some of his misogynist shite (which I've come to understand when I actually researched his wife...she reminds me of Courtney Love, and you all know how much I hate her), I've got to give the man this: He seems to really want to be a good father for his child, and he's doing his best. Thus, lyrics that I can't help but be moved by.

Eminem
Mockingbird

Yeah
I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right
now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me

Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
Well I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I never
had
I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
Cuz you're scared, I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gon' pull together through it, we gon' do it
Laney uncles crazy, aint he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move, mamma's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me
All the things growing up his daddy that he had to see
Daddy don't want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what
destiny is
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream

[Chorus]
Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady, i told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But i promise momma's gon' be alright

It's funny
I remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree and said some of 'em were from me
Cuz daddy couldn't buy 'em
I'll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole night
crying
Cuz daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broke into and robbed
Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in
a jar
Tryna start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole
it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguin' a lot so momma moved back
On the Chalmers in the flat one bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr.
Dre
And flew you and momma out to see me
But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the T.V. and momma didn't like
it
And you and Laney were to young to understand it
Papa was a rollin' stone, momma developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sittin in this empty house, just reminiscing
Lookin' at your baby pictures, it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown, it's almost like you're
sisters now
Wow, guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Laney I'm talkin' to you too, daddy's still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It's got a ring to it don't it?
Shh, momma's only gone for the moment

[Chorus]

And if you ask me too
Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'mma give you the world
I'mma buy a diamond ring for you
I'mma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'mma break that birdies neck
I'd go back to the jewler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don't f**k with dad (haha)

Nothin' in life is set in stone

So I didn't have time to search many places, but here are the names I found that are possible candidates if/when I change to a unisex name, along with their meanings. The ones in bold are my favorites. Note: I'm only looking for ones that start with A because I don't want to change my initials (A.M.F.M) because they're unique ~_^

Adrian-Dark
Aiken-From the Oak tree
Aindrea-Manly, Courageous
Ainsely/Ainslie-My own meadow
Aleron-Epaulet worn by a knight
Andrea-Courageous
Arden-Thrilled and excited
Arien-Enchanted
Ashling-Dream, Vision
Astin-Starlike
Aubrey-Noble, Bright
Aure-Soft air, Breeze


So, what do you all think?

Musings...

Just thought you guys deserved a heads up. I am contemplating doing a novel length project based off of the characters portrayed in the ficlets I've been doing for 100originalfics. I'll keep doing those, but it feels like these guys deserve more than 100 short things. I might consider asking Bri to tag along, since one of the characters(who has not appeared in the first few fics, which can be found here) is 99.99% hers, I just gave him his first name. Anyway...yeah.