These precious illusions in my head

Up in an attempt to get my sleep cycle back on track. Umm, something hit me and the muses in the head last night. I'm not sure if I'll do it, if I do it could get painful, but it could be what me and the ladies and boys I share my psyche with need to let go. I don't know, we'll see.


"Precious Illusions"
Alanis Morisette

You'll rescue me right?
In the exact same way they never did..
I'll be happy right?
When your healing powers kick in

You'll complete me right?
Then my life can finally begin
I'll be worthy right?
Only when you realize the gem I am?

But this won't work now the way it once did
And I won't keep it up even though I would love to
Once I know who I'm not then I'll know who I am
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim

These precious illusions in my head did not let me down
When I was defenseless
And parting with them is like parting with invisible best friends

This ring will help me yet as will you knight in shining armor
This pill will help me yet as will these boys gone through like water

But this won't work as well as the way it once did
Cuz I want to decide between survival and bliss
And though I know who I'm not I still don't know who I am
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim

These precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was a kid
And parting with them is like parting with a childhood best friend

I've spent so long firmly looking outside me
I've spent so much time living in survival mode

This won't work now the way it once did
Cuz I want to deside between survival and bliss
Now I know who I'm not
I don't I still don't know who I am
But I know I won't keep on playing the victom

These precious illusions in my head did not let me down
When I was defenseless
And parting with them is like parting with invisible best friends

These precious illusions in my head did not let me down
When I was a kid
And parting with them is like parting with childhood best friends

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Meh, I ended up going back to sleep around sevenish (while the lights were on, I was that tired), woke up a few times thinking about getting up and didn't actually do it until 11:30. I'm really going to be out of it when school starts. Um, got my new glasses. Father has already mocked them as I knew he would. They're really nerd glasses (Dad said librarian glasses), I wanted slightly different (but still nerdy) ones, but mum said the nose piece wasn't good enough or something, blegh.

Yes, yes it is

This made me smile...

From the comic Sore Thumbs...

Cecania: Hey! Let's play Final Fantasy now!
Fairbanks: That atrociously bad 3D CGI movie? You can't play a movie, stupid! Not even Tron!

Cecania: Not The Spirits Within! Don't even mention that movie in my presence!


When the guy who knows nothing about video games calls Spirits Within atrocious...you know for a fact it really, really was

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We're going to get a PS2, yay! Mum's having issues trying to use a giftcard, so it'll probably be a little while, but still. Now I can see (hopefully) if FFX lives up to the hype! And I have decided after hearing three songs that I definietely love Sylvie Lewis and as soon as I have money to spare (birthday's soon...) I'm getting her album.

Last entry for '05, I swear

Took it from frozen_pixie

In the year 2006 I resolve to: Become one with my inner sociopath. Get your resolution here

*giggle*That's it for this year, promise. Have a nice new year's eve all! Eat, drink and be merry! (But make sure you have a designated driver ~_^)

Slightly sooner than I intended to post this.....

Clicked the 'latest link instead of 'next' on Sore Thumbs and here's what came up...



*giggles*Happy '06 everybody.