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I just made the leap of checking for stormy's LJ account. she updated about 6 months ago. she's going to college apparently, her mum has cancer and...I miss her. I don't know if our relationship (those of you who don't know what's going on here-she was my first really good friend, we never dated, she just helped me through a bunch of shitt when I was coming to terms with my sexuality) could be what it was but I just want closure. Do you guys think I should comment on her journal, or just...I don't know. meep.

meltdown averted

I posted about my dilema in yessaid, and after some time to think and some kind words from moviegal...


Thank you. I think I was just in a moment of panic, as I often go into when I'm reminded of her existance. Due to the fact that she actually removed me from her friends list, I'm inclined to believe she has moved on. Which makes me sad, since I haven't, but maybe it's for the best. We used each other quite a bit (emotionally), and the more I think back the more it hurts when I realize we did care for each other, but we were both in bad patches at the time we met (she in her family and love life, me with my discovery of my sexuality). I think we helped each other, and maybe that's the only reason we met, the big jellyfish (as a friend calls it) knew we needed someone to listen and vent and gave us each other for two years for that reason, then split us apart when we'd strengthened. I don't know. But I'm feeling a bit better now. Thanks for the kinds words anyway hon *hug*

I don't know if I'll ever truly get over the loss of Stormy's friendship, but I think I can live with the idea that she was in my life, gave me what I needed at the time, and then faded away.

Threads that are golden don't break easily...
You said it Tori

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Stolen from Veronica

I would like to see what you all look like. (Even if I've already seen what you look like. Just humour me, please.) Post a pic of yourself in the comments.

Oh, and because I forgot to mention it, I'm reading Sophie's World, a book about the history of philosphy. Reallly messing with my head, but decided I needed to read something more 'serious' before summer ended to prepare for the dive into AP English. Anyway, I'm gonna try to go to sleep now. Nightie night all.