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Grandma's taking me to get my haircut tonight, wheeeeee!

I really need to try to fix up my Lit paper...I think it meets the requirements in the most literal sense, but it sucks and since I have to print it sometime tonight before I get picked up...*sigh*

And I'm having way too much fun with shared libraries on iTunes ^_^

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Annie Lennox+guitar=ridiculous sexy.

Seriously. The video for Sexcrime (1984)...rawr. Hell, in any video rawr.

I'm feeling really good today. Which is kind of weird since I had a bit of a panic attack last night. I didn't shake or anything, all in my head, but...

Yeah. I guess I just calmed down. Which is weird for me. Esp. considering that while I was walking back from gym, I thought about things it's really best I not think about. I think it's the fact I've accepted that I can't ignore the white elephant. It's always going to be there. It's going to surface at random, usually really terrible times. And I just have to ride it out.

I think it also helps that the painters seem to be wrapping up. Which is very lovely. They'll probably pop in again in two days just to piss me off, but still. And my body doesn't hurt near as much as it did the past few days...though I know I'll feel like crap tomorrow since I got to gym early so spent about twenty minutes with the various weight machines.

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Came home to an email telling me I didn't get the job, and for a really fucking stupid reason.

So now I get to see if anywhere else on campus where I'd be, you know, at all useful, still has openings.

Alicia is a very pissed off panda right now. I doubt the haircut I'm getting tonight will make it any better. I'm really not immpressed with the workstudy people here. I'm almost fucking crying because it's so stupid why they didn't hire me. I said I'd work whatever, but they said 'we want someone for 10 hours a week, and you said you wanted 20...'...which I clairifed by saying I'd *LIKE* 20, but I could settle for ANYTHING.

Yeah, I fucking hate the world right now. So much for today being a good day.

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Just got back from turning in my app at another place. Cross everything for me guys.

Something I realized while I was going over to turn it in...just looking at my ring (which has turned coppery...I know jewelery does that, but it seems to have done it very suddenly...)...after I came back with the app to fill it out, I had e-mail from Bri and...

This is all worth it. All my freak outs and the hell I've been going through the past couple weeks...there's a reason for it. And it'll all be worth it in the end. I know it will.



EDIT: I've decided this is now a label-free zone. Labels make my head hurt.