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Not a process
I've had the book this poem is in for a long time. I've read it many times. But this is the first time I've really been able to relate to it, in the good way.
The Meaning Of The Smell Of Sweat
Niama Lesile JoAnn Williams
it has been so long oshun
depression silenced your voice
walled me in
i took refuge under the covers.
now it as though the world has started anew
i have energy again
faith again
poems bloom at 4am again
i accept that i am a night person
long for residence in a quiet town
with a theatre
where gunshots do not populate the night
waking from depression is not a process
one morning or evening you just realize the bad days are over
suddenly you want to get out of bed
your chosen career is no longer a mistake
under the covers is no longer the safest place.
waking from depression is a gift
the doctor reduces your medication
you find you are closer to the goal line than you thought
getting a phd seems viable
you pull your head from beneath the covers and smell flowers
instead of your own sweat.
The Meaning Of The Smell Of Sweat
Niama Lesile JoAnn Williams
it has been so long oshun
depression silenced your voice
walled me in
i took refuge under the covers.
now it as though the world has started anew
i have energy again
faith again
poems bloom at 4am again
i accept that i am a night person
long for residence in a quiet town
with a theatre
where gunshots do not populate the night
waking from depression is not a process
one morning or evening you just realize the bad days are over
suddenly you want to get out of bed
your chosen career is no longer a mistake
under the covers is no longer the safest place.
waking from depression is a gift
the doctor reduces your medication
you find you are closer to the goal line than you thought
getting a phd seems viable
you pull your head from beneath the covers and smell flowers
instead of your own sweat.