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You can love someone with all your heart, for all the right reasons and in a moment they can choose to walk away. Love 'em anyway-Martina McBride 'Anyway'

Great advice Martina, but it's a helluva lot harder than you make it sound.

Some of the girls were boys

Should you be MALE or FEMALE?* created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Male Being mostly male / masculine, within your structures of thinking simply means that your reasoning powers are (the way they are perceived in Western Culture`) higher than the one of the opposite sex. Psychoanalsis claims this to come at the price of creative expression - a rational thinker can not think out of the box, it is claimed. Male 46% Neither 43% Either 39% Female 29%

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I wrote almost a thousand words today, woot! Not the project I would like to be working on, but still. It's something.

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We got to open one of our x-mas gifts tonight, and the one I opened was Constantine: The Hellblazer Collection which has the official comics adaptation of the Constantine movie, and three of the old Hellblazer comics, including one Neil Gaiman wrote. I am sooo happy. The only time I've come close to reading anything of Hellblazer was Constantine's appearance in the first volume of The Sandman, so yeah. I'm a happy geekling ~_^

The snow turned into rain

So I'm sitting here downloading (for free!) the first volume of Hellblazer, and thinking...this is the first time in about three years I've actually be...if not happy, then content around Christmas.

Anyone who's kept in close touch knows why the past two Christmases have been tough on me. A whole buncha crap going on and confusion and ugggh. The funny thing? This Christmas is worse. I have no one, fucking NO ONE around.

But you know what? that's okay. Because unlike the last two years, I know why. And the knowing makes it easier, for once. Am I happy about it? Hell no. Do I wish I could make all the things keeping me from these people go away? You bet your ass.

But, for once, knowing the truth helps. I'm not worrying that I hurt somebody. No, it's just life. And, while it sucks, it makes it a lot easier to handle life.

So, yeah. Alicia's okay right now. I'm sure that'll change when I go back to school, but for right now, things are okay.